Dreaming of Motherhood
I have dreamt about the beauty of being a mum for as long as I can remember. As a girl, I would play with my baby dolls, naming them and dressing them up beautifully upon pretending to be a loving parent. There was an adorable little toy kitchen that I adored playing with, putting on my pretty flowery apron whilst I had fun in pretending to cook up a delicious dinner for my family. These are the memories that I cherish deeply. In my mind, I still remember that toy kitchen as if it were yesterday. My hopes and dreams of being a beautiful homemaker mother were passionately engraved in my heart since the beginning of time. I feel it within my spirit, that I was always meant to be a mum. Though now in my adult years, my journey of dreaming for the things I love has not always felt the same. There have been ups and downs, like many women like me who are facing the heartache of hope deferred. In our teenage years, we’d always say we’d be married with children by the age of twenty five, but once my mid twenties hit, all hope and excitement for my life totally escaped me.
It wasn’t until I had learned to truly let go of putting pressure on myself, departing from worrying about timelines and comparison with others, is when I truly learned to find rest within the beauty of timing. Yes, my heart still aches day by day, but in the midst of such pain I am learning to embrace gratitude and beauty for where God has me in the present moment. What helps me to cope is continuing to dream of motherhood, embracing the splendor of looking forward to holding my baby one day, kissing their cheeks, watching them take their first steps. Dreaming of motherhood, dreaming of my children.
If your story is similar to mine in any way, I hope I can encourage you to keep dreaming of being a mum too. For though your baby may not be here yet, they are already within the Lord’s hands. All will bloom together beautifully when the time is right. In the meantime, stay lovely and beautiful and close to God. If you need any more gentle encouragement, you can also read my books, ‘Everlasting Love’ and ‘Housewife Dreams’. Both books are available to buy on amazon to uplift. your heart.
With love, Devona Fayana